How To Feel Like Yourself Again: A Poem

                 1. wake up early

           before the children

     (this may not happen)



2. make a coffee
   drink half
        reheat
            forget



            3. sit down
       stand up
             sit down
        stand up
             pick up child
       put down child
             sit down
        stand up



4. say you will write
      open document
           type one sentence
                delete sentence
           hear shouting
      close document



                    5. feel irritated
                feel guilty
            feel tired
        feel grateful
    feel nothing


                               6. wait for your partner
                          to come home

                          wait
                               wait
                                    wait



7. hand over children
           go to bathroom alone
                     lock door

                           sit
                               on
                                  floor



8. do not scroll
            do not clean
                   do not plan
                          do not fix
                                 just sit



          9. notice body
                notice breath
                      notice you exist



10. remember

      you were a person before this
           you are a person during this
                you will be a person after this



                 11. feel like yourself

                         for

                               thirty

                                       seconds



12. hear your name

        get up